How it's going

It can be quite frightening when it happens.

You are talking to someone
and then they ask " How's it going"
and they look you in the eyes
and there is a silence
and you begin to recite the usual, acceptable, inane response
and then it happens,
without warning,
you tell them how it really is.

You didn't know until the words passed your lips.

Now it is an uncomfortable reality.


Your body has turned to not quite set jelly,
your eyes are wide open,
your eyelids are filled with hot tears,
your mouth opens and closes
stuttering empty sounds.

You are in shock
and you are frightened.



I am in shock
and I am frightened.